you know what,
i wish i failed every exam in secondary three.
maybe then you'll be finally happy.
cos then every single word you said would be true.
unlike now, where you go on and on about me being an utter failure at my examinations,
when the truth is, not only did i never fail a single subject in my entire life, i still dont get it why you just cant accept the fact that i got 5As, 2Bs and 2Cs for my eoys.
maybe i didnt do as excellently, fantastically, and superbly well as i have always done in almost every single examination all my life.
but get over it, will you?
i did averagely for perhaps the second time in my life.
and i did study, i did do my best.
and to me, doing my best is always good enough for the moment.
i hate you for making me feel like the lesser person than i really am.
i hate you for always being disappointed in me, no matter how many As i get.
i hate you for trying to make me feel disappointed in myself, over and over again.
Just shutup and quit it already.
this isnt going to make you feel any better, nor is it going to turn the clock back so that i can sit for my eoys again.
and the good lord himself knows this isnt going to help me any way.
so get back to me, when you finally have some constructive advice.
the definition of a failure in my eyes are the people who give up all along the way, as well as the people who put them down several times before they even have a chance to finally stand up are also to blame as well.
when you believe someone else is a failure, then you have failed them.
when you believe you have failed, that is when you finally have.
in these words, you are the failure in my life, not me.
Baby,top. || 4:56 PM