okays. i'm back to post. i know i've been neglecting this blog for awhile.

anyway, went to hillary's house for chloe's farewell party two days ago. was quite okay, but i didnt swim cos i didnt want to wash my hair again and besides, i didnt feel like swimming. my hair smelled nice. and then natasha and nisha and i went to the playground to chit-chat. it was nice. i can almost cartwheel again, almost. hope one day i can cartwheel together with elaine again. i havent done that in ages. then i heard someone was bitching about me. fine, i dont care. go ahead and bitch, if it makes you happy. i know it's untrue, and as long as my friends know it too, it's more than enough.

i'm so confused now. i dont even know what's happening anymore. people tell me two different stories, and i dont even know what or who to believe. i thought there were some people whom i could trust, but it turned out they were bitching about me behind my back. it doesnt matter now. even if they apologise for bitching, i'm not going to trust them again. it's like trying to murder someone, and then when the person's dead, you apologise and say you didnt mean to kill the person and it was all and accident and go on justifying your actions. but it's too late, the fact is that you already killed the person, and no matter what you say or do after that will change that fact. fine; if everyone wants to rock the boat, i dont care anymore. i'm just not going to do anything. i'm sick and tired of caring too much, cos in the end it will all probably end up to nothing. i'm just going to let it fall apart, if everyone's going to not bother, cos i'm not going to bother either.

suddenly, giving up on this whole issue seems like the best thing to do.

anyway; back to happier things. went to library with emily yesterday. it was so nice. borrowed a ton of books a gain. i like the library at sunplaza, event though it's really small, it's easier to find the books you want.

at least i'm not going to be so bored this hols. i've got a job, and there are all those camps and plus there's a mountain of books to read at home, so it's not going to be so boring.

okay, comehow i dont feel like blogging anymore. so i'll end here. this seems like a pretty pathetic post, but right now, i really dont care.
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