almost a month.
okay anyway today i was surfing on friendster.
and i came to a realisation (woah epiphany here!)
how different i am from emily and the rest of my primary school clique now.
(i dont think they'll even read this so i'm gonna just say what i want to say)
all except wenxin, whom i can still relate to.
but the rest, well not quite.
it's just not the same anymore.
not wrong, but just different.
sometimes i feel, and i think wenxin feels it too, that we grew up, and somehow, we left them behind.
i'm not saying that the path they took was wrong.
but i feel they could have done so much better.
i guess we just took different paths,
and now it's like we dont inhabit the same world anymore.
like we dont share the same dreams and idealogies and the same topics to gossip about anymore.
not like we used to.
we all used to want the same things.
but now it's difficult to even have a proper conversation.
i think the point is we all grew up, and in different ways.
it's just that they chose their path, and i chose mine.
i dont regret going to ij, never have, never will.
if i could turn back time, i would still write 7004 on my dsa form, and not 3007.
i'm happy with the path i chose,
but i guess i'm kind of sad that we didnt take the same path.
but i felt that if you keep sticking with your old friends,
you'll never grow. you'll just be the same old you.
and i didnt want to just be the same old me, never seeing the rest of the world, getting to meet new people, and just sticking to the tried and tested.
i guess this is all part of growing up, aint it?
you just have to leave someone behind.
apologies if you didnt understand this post.
it was meant for myself.
cos truly, what's a blog if you cant say what you want?
