i dont even know why i even bother getting pissed off anymore.
it seems like such a total waste of energy.
but when i think about it, everything.. just starts boiling up again.
and you know what? you never ever saw where you went wrong,
even though i've said it countless of times.
i've explained it again and again, but you just dont get it, do you?
it's not that i dont care about you.
i really do.
it's not that i dont want to be your good friend anymore, the one you can rely on.
i really do.
it's not that i dont want to try to salvage the pathetic remains of our friendship,
i really do.
but you just make it so hard to do all this.
why cant you see it from my side for once?
i need my own space to breathe, to think, to do what i want.
to occasionally go out with my other friends.
without you interfering in all my personal stuff.
that's all i'm asking for, is that too much?
i keep trying to accomodate you all the time.
i feel like i'm suffocating under this friendship, and that's not what a friendship's supposed to be.
i know you're insecure about friendships, about people around you, but seriously, your insecurities are getting overboard, to the point where i cant even take it anymore.
to you, you see nothing wrong.
to you, it's always me, myself and i.
how people think of you.
that seems to be all you ever care about.
i'm sorry, everyone has their breaking point, and i guess i've reached mine.
i've tried to do what i can to explain to you, to reply whatever you asked me.
i've even taken time out to think really long and hard about the reply.
but you still dont seem to understand
you even demanded that i give in to you.
you know what, that's it.
i give up.
i'm not going to bother.
i dont even care anymore.
